Cliche or not, at the start of 2017 I sat down and made some resolutions - Goals, Intentions- Whatever you want to call them, I made a commitment to me. I promised myself that no matter what the day brings, I will practice Yoga for at least 30 minutes, I will meditate for at least 10 minutes and I will write in my journal every night.
Why did I make this resolution? Because believe it or not, as a Yoga teacher and a studio owner, I was not getting to my mat. I had so many other things on my plate, that at the end of the day, my practice, stillness and working through thoughts and emotions through writing were the easiest things to push aside so that I could go to bed and get some much needed sleep. And I knew that by taking more time for me, that I would be more present for my kids, and they are my number one priority. They are my heart and soul. And they deserve the best version of me.
As a result of neglecting myself, I was feeling scattered, disconnected to my body, my anxiety and depression had come back full force, I was short with my kids, I had gained weight, my skin was a mess and I was exhausted. I Felt like I was slowly falling apart. I was not practicing what I was preaching to my students. I knew what I was supposed to be doing, but I was not doing it, and as a result, myself and everyone around me was suffering.
So, I knew I had to make a change, I knew it would make my days longer, I knew I would have to schedule it on my to-do list and make it a priority. And I did. For the past 20 days I did yoga for 30+ minutes, I meditated for 10+ minutes and I wrote every night - my thoughts, my hopes, my dreams, my struggles and my frustrations.
And guess what? My whole world has changed! I feel much more rested and alive. My body is feeling stronger day by day. I am much stronger emotionally, my skin is slowly clearing up, I am more patient with my kids, I feel whole and connected again.
By taking time for myself every day I have opened up more space in my life. More time for my kids, more time for me, and more space to give and receive love. I have never felt more alive in my life!
And the amazingness of the past 20 days didn't just stop at the shift when I took more time for me. You all amplified it ten fold!
Last week's classes were full! As in, pre-booked before the class even started! Never in my wildest dreams did I ever think that 4 months into this journey I would be selling out classes! You have no idea how humbling that is. How incredible it feels to lead you. How amazing it is to be in a room with the energy of 20+ people moving and breathing together. Finding earth and connection.
I need you to know that by being at the studio, you are helping me to live my dream and fulfil my life's purpose. And I hope that by being in the space you are inspired to take on new challenges, that you are able to put your dreams out to the the universe and live your life to your fullest! I am your biggest supporter and that you can do anything you set your mind to!
And please know that when I talk about emotional strength - I do not mean that I never cry and things don't effect me. I mean just the opposite actually. I give myself permission to feel and to release any emotion. This week was a struggle for me. I was a puddle and cried for a solid 24 hours. I couldn't let anyone hug me because it would set me off again. But, I did not try to hold it in and be strong. I let the tears flow freely, taking with them any negative energy and hurt to leave me cleansed and refreshed. After the last tear dropped, I was fine. I worked through the emotion, I released it, and I was fine. I hit my mat and I meditated, I reconnected to my breath and went to bed. The next 3 days were amazing!
And, tonight in class I cried. As the teacher, I cried. I was so moved by the release of energy in the room. So grateful for the people who choose me to lead them, so grateful for the curveballs life has thrown me that have led me to this place. I cried.
I was fortunate to be born into a large extended family, 95% of which live in Lunenburg County. I did not realize when I opened the studio that my family was going to become even larger. To date our yoga family has grown to 420 people. 420 people who have all had the strength and courage to step through those doors, be vulnerable on their mat, share energy ad let go. I applaud each and every one of you, and I am so happy to see you, each and every time you come. You may not come everyday, you may not come every month, but know that we are here for you when you need us. All 420 of us. No judgement - just love.
And you see the smile on the girl in that picture? That is a genuine smile. It is not something that comes easy to me and not something people have seen very often. But because of all of you, I find that smile more and more each day. Because of you, all other aspects of my life have become infinitely more amazing. I am a better mother, I am a better Daughter, I am a better friend and I am a better human.
I bow to you, because you have no idea how strong and influential you are. Sprinkle your love everywhere this weekend - the world needs you now more than ever.
Ignite your true essence and watch the ripples.
Brittany is the Founder and Owner of Yoga Room of Essence. Yoga and Eastern Healing Methods have made a significant impact on her life. Here she will share knowledge, insight and inquiries into these amazing Healing Methods.